Bye bye sibutramine

It' getting better all the time...
(the beatles)

It's getting better today.
I went to my buddy's wedding party today. Although I didn't see lot of my friends, I was glad because I could make him happy at last for attending one of his biggest days.
Last night I had a little terrified feeling(again) but this time because of a real cause. My notebook adapter didn't work for no reason. Huh, but it's OK, today I've got the substitute hehe.
What else? Oh yeah, I've finally realized that the etiology of my last week mourning was the drugs i had taken days before. I'd taken sibutramine to reduce my 3kg excess of weight. Although the drug did work, but the adverse effect was terrible that I'd never thought before. According to precaution note, beside any cardiovascular effect, sibutramine can also cause depression. Although it's not common but it might have happened before, so the scientists have to warrant the patient and also the doctor for this unexpected effect.
But thanks God, maybe because this drugs have totally diminished from my body, so I think I can back to normal life today.
So, goodbye sibutramine. I think it's better for me to be drawn in fat, rather than I have to involve in a syndrome called depression.
Maybe in my later blog, I will write further about sibutramine.

Sindrom Peter Pan

Saya ingin mengutip sedikit tentang sebuah sindrom yang ditulis oleh Deanna Kizis dalam novel nya yang keren yaitu Peter Pan's syndrome.

"We've all heard the story of Peter Pan by now. You know, Pan's flying around, doing his thing, when he becomes obsessed with this girl Wendy, and starts showing up at her house at all hours and taking her out on fancy adventures. Until, one day, Wendy wants him to act like a man. She wants him to be accountable. So what does Peter Pan do? He flies off with Tinker Bell in tow and continues his life as another immature male and Wendy gets left in the dust.

Of course, Peter Pan's story is pretty easy to figure out: Boy meets girl. Girl becomes woman. Woman wants boy to grow up. He can't handle the pressure and bails. The Peter Pan syndrome - that's pretty much every guy I've ever met."

Kita dapat menarik kesimpulan bahwa Peter Pan adalah tetap seorang bocah. Dan itulah yang kebanyakan kita lihat di dunia ini, bahwa seorang pria kebanyakan adalah tetap menjadi seorang bocah hingga sayap-sayap mereka begitu kelelahan untuk terbang.

Turn to Carrie (again)

This is my seventh day I feel like I'm living in the middle of nothing. I still can not get to think what has been wrong with me. My friends keep telling me that I'll be OK. My parents asked me what was wrong with me. I still don't have any answer yet. I don't know...
I hope this is just a normal period that always happens due to a hormonal imbalance. But this time it's so severe so I couldn't help but wonder.
I'm afraid that these symptoms I've got lead to a final diagnosis called Depression. My lack of concentration, my decrease in appetite, my lack of interest to socialize with people around me are enough to make me take Prozac, I think.
But what was the etiology??
I still have no exact answer what was the cause. All I know is I have an insecure feeling about these circumstances. I'm afraid that my friends wouldn't like me anymore. I've been pushing myself too hard just to think why he suddenly disappeared. I've been asking myself why did he lie to me..All those broken promises,etc2.
But I still can one relief. In my blackest days I usually turn again to Carrie Bradshaw and her friends. Yes, these fascinating ladies keep inspire me how to live in this crazy days with full of unfaithful and loser guys.
Also, I usually end my days with a novel "how to meet cute guys". It's very funny though, it's witty but also teach me how to keep alive although you're broken to million pieces.